Walk with me as I "Follow the Fish"...JESUS!!!

On Oct 15 I ran my 8.5 mile training for the half marathon I was going to be doing on Oct 23. When I finished running that day...I could barely walk. My left ankle did something and it swelled and H U R T!!! OUCH!!! I went to the doctor that week to make sure it wasn't broken or fractured before I ran the half marathon . The doctor sent me for xrays but also let me know that a stress fracture of the fibula doesn't always show up until it's healing and if it got any worse, I should come back in within 2 weeks and have another xray. The xray at that time showed that I did not have a fractured fibula however, the pain and what the ankle has been doing since Oct 15 never really changed. It has been hurting and swelling this whole time. Photo courtesy of google images I went to a foot and ankle specialist yesterday for my bruised toenails and to have him look at my ankle and tell me what he thought. He couldn't believe I had 6 bruised toenails of which ALL of them sho...

I was emotional leading up to the event and I really thought it was going to be an emotional day for me but it really wasn’t and that was a great relief! I’m trying to stop my mind thinking that healing needs to look like this or that (that I needed to be all emotional for the healing/past of this event to take place). I feel that God had me run for a reason...I’m still trying to process what that reason is. (Maybe there’ll be a “Run for Raped & Sexually Abused Victims”) Nevertheless, I know that God had me run “For such a time as THIS”!!! Maybe you would continue to pray for me that God would reveal anything He wants to from this, that I’ll hear his voice just as clearly as I did when He told me to “Choose to Run”. The run itself was difficult but good. I marveled at the symbolism of the run compared to my true life event – there were 13 miles to symbolize my 13 years before being raped and .10 miles to run to the police station /the end...13.1 never felt SO good!!! (Freedom!!!) ...

When I was 13 years old, I was held down and forcibly raped by a guy that I babysat for and kept there to endure more at a later time in the night. During the in-between time of events, I had an opportunity to “RUN”. There was a police station a block away and I was one of the FASTEST cross country runners at school...if I had only gotten up off that couch and “RUN”. Why didn’t I run? I was afraid...FEAR kept me from running. Thankfully God was with me then and God is with me now!!! In April of this year, (after 27 years) God told me it was time to forgive the guy who raped me. I walked through that process and I forgave him and it was one of the most freeing things for me! And now...it’s time to RUN! Over the last few months, I have been training to run the St. Louis 1/2 marathon (13.1 miles)...not because it’s anything that “I’ve” ever wanted to do but it’s more of a command from the Lord for me. I’m suppose to “Choose...to RUN”! I’ve tried to quit a couple of times but God has awa...

I'm walking through alot of healing these days and SO glad I have found FREEDOM from "many things" holding me captive! One of the things coming from my healing is...CHOOSING to forgive. I am beginning to share a part of my life story out in bloggy land - if you'd like to read it, feel free to click here . The biggest part of the story is...I CHOOSE to FORGIVE!!! I FORGIVE YOU! Forgiveness is a gift you give yourself...CHOOSE to FORGIVE!!!