Monday, May 18, 2009

A Homeschool Rally

There was an urgent call for the homeschool families to come to the steps of the Jefferson City, MO capital on Thursday, May 14. I haven't been to a "rally" before so I prayed about it and felt that Heather and I needed to head to Jeff 10:30am we were on our way. We were so excited to be blessed with a parking spot RIGHT in front of the capital at 12:55...just in time for the 1pm rally. It was the coolest thing to open in prayer on the capital steps. There were over 2000 in attendance. Thanks to Kerry Messer things got straightened out and some positive changes took place for us homeschoolers. They requested that we take a lap around the 3rd floor of the capital...that was fun.

What a blessing and a "surprise" for Heather to run into many of her good friends while she was there...

Monday, May 11, 2009

Mother's Day ( a day late :-)

I woke up to a WONDERFUL mothers day - breakfast in bed, flowers, a jewelry box, stepping stone, a necklace, cards and an Applebees gift card...the best gift was spending the morning with my wonderful kids!!! Michael came to church and went to lunch with us - we had a very good time!

It was rough celebrating this mothers day without my momma but we stopped by and placed flowers on her grave. On the 27th of this month she will be gone a year. I miss her!!!

Since my moms death, I've been trying to determine "WHAT" my purpose in this world/life is all about. I think I've finally figured it out, I always wanted us to "go" and be missionaries but I feel like the Lord is teaching me that my "children" are my mission field. They are my gifts from God, if we minister to the world but our children go to hell, what does it profit us?

I have been asking the Lord alot lately to change me and help me to be a better mom. My relationship with my daughter seems strained most of the time and I want it to be so much more kind and loving than it is. Unfortunately, my mom didn't have an interest in kids (her own or her grandchildren) until she was sick and it was too late at that point to try to redo or undo a life of difficulties...I don't want that with my daughter. I vow to break this bondage in Jesus name (with the help of prayer and the Lord :-)

I love you Lord and thank you for the AWESOME kids that you have given me and pray that you will continue to bring me from glory to glory in raising my kids. Please Lord make me a better mom. I love you Lord!!!

Friday, May 08, 2009

Being a Mom...

I struggle so much with being a mom...when I grew up kids weren't appreciated, they held no value, no one expressed that Children were "gifts" from God as the Bible says they are. I feel for the last 9 years it's been a sort of push and pull kind of thing that I've now submitted to in a kicking and screaming {almost} motherly kind of way.

Each day that goes by, I realize is another day that's past that I will not get back but somehow, I can't seem to break/get out of this continual cycle of just "going through the motions" in being a mother & homeschool mom.

I have friends who are just AWESOME moms and AWESOME homeschool moms and I feel as if I'm falling SO short. I know I'm not the worst mom in the world but I know I'm not the best mom in the world either and I beg God every day to make me better at being a mom.

If you look at'd think we would have a great relationship...but it seems my daughter and I bunt heads almost continually...Lord help me in this venture that you've called me to. Lord, help me realize that you love, value and appreciate children and ultimately as a children are my mission field. Lord change me from the inside out and make me such a better mom than I am.

Staying home has been the hardest thing that I've done...I know I'm not where I NEED to be but I thank God that I'm not where I USED to be!!!

I love my Jesus, I love my husband and I love my children...Lord change me!!!

Saturday, May 02, 2009

Pujols 5...EXCELLENT!!!

A few months ago my dear friend Amy from posted a special on her tightwad website that was having an 80% off sale where you could get $25 gift certificates for $2 each...WOW!!! I clickety, clicked over to here and saw a SLEW of places to choose from...since our nephew works at Pujols 5 and my husband has been wanting to go there, I purchased 4 $25 certificates for a total for $8. I've given 3 of them away as gifts but saved one for us to use...boy am I glad!!! We went tonight and walked right in, they have a lovely place. Larry got a rack of ribs and a soda (the ribs came with a small Caesar salad, fries and coleslaw) I got an 8 oz. Filet Minion and an Arnold Palmer (1/2 tea, 1/2 lemonade) (my Filet came with mashed potatoes, greenbeans & French Onion soup) the biscuits were TOTALLY AWESOME. We both had an EXCELLENT meal and thoroughly enjoyed each others company and our food. With the $25 gift card off of our meal, and tax & tip we paid $33.10 out of pocket...this is a place we will DEFINITELY go to again!!! Thanks Amy for your AWESOME money saving posts!!!