Each day that goes by, I realize is another day that's past that I will not get back but somehow, I can't seem to break/get out of this continual cycle of just "going through the motions" in being a mother & homeschool mom.
I have friends who are just AWESOME moms and AWESOME homeschool moms and I feel as if I'm falling SO short. I know I'm not the worst mom in the world but I know I'm not the best mom in the world either and I beg God every day to make me better at being a mom.
If you look at us...you'd think we would have a great relationship...but it seems my daughter and I bunt heads almost continually...Lord help me in this venture that you've called me to. Lord, help me realize that you love, value and appreciate children and ultimately as a mother...my children are my mission field. Lord change me from the inside out and make me such a better mom than I am.
Staying home has been the hardest thing that I've done...I know I'm not where I NEED to be but I thank God that I'm not where I USED to be!!!
I love my Jesus, I love my husband and I love my children...Lord change me!!!