Choosing to Run…

When I was 13 years old, I was held down and forcibly raped by a guy that I babysat for and kept there to endure more at a later time in the night. During the in-between time of events, I had an opportunity to “RUN”. There was a police station a block away and I was one of the FASTEST cross country runners at school...if I had only gotten up off that couch and “RUN”.

Why didn’t I run? I was afraid...FEAR kept me from running. Thankfully God was with me then and God is with me now!!!

In April of this year, (after 27 years) God told me it was time to forgive the guy who raped me. I walked through that process and I forgave him and it was one of the most freeing things for me!

And now...it’s time to RUN!

Over the last few months, I have been training to run the St. Louis 1/2 marathon (13.1 miles)...not because it’s anything that “I’ve” ever wanted to do but it’s more of a command from the Lord for me. I’m suppose to “Choose...to RUN”! I’ve tried to quit a couple of times but God has awaken me in the night telling me “Choose to Run”. Therefore, that’s what I’m choosing to do...that 13 year old girl can get off that couch and run...fear will NOT keep her there any longer!

I’m not the FASTEST runner anymore but I don’t care about times...I just want to FINISH the race! Jesus is who He says He is and I can testify by what He’s done in me...I’m an Overcomer!!!


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Paper Blessings said…
Run, Girl, run! :)

I'll be cheering you the entire way.
5:57 AM
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